gday

Hello,

how you going again? good. heeh that was quick


So yeah, its about 10'clock on a wednesday night. Worked today 9-6pm, was pretty like constantly busy day, i didnt sell very much but had lots of stock to put out and so forth. I had to redo the portable dvd players...which took ages. I was trying to leave on time @ 6pm but because of the end of day checklists we have to do i knew i was going to be late to soccer @ 7pm. But thankfully my manager tamara was nice enough to stay back and do all the checklists, very nice of her, so i owe her one for that. By time i got home, changed and drove to soccer i arrived just before the game start which was sweet. We also won 2-1 so thats a sweetner too.

Rose and steve-o came and visited me too at work which was nice. Unfortunately i couldnt spend too much time with them as i was busy doing work stuff, hopefully next time i can chat to them and chill a bit more.

Last night...i went over to rosie's house just to have a chat and chill a bit. Felt good being back her house, saying hi to her parents and just sittin in her room. I was very happy to say hi to mrs kang again hehe shes a nice lady. Rosie was definately doing a total room clean....was nuts she dont mess around. Was stuff everywhere, ehhe it makes me think that i should really finish off my room and get my act together!!! theres always time for that i guess.

What did we chat about....well we both cried quite a bit, both just emotional trashbags eheh..in a good way. I hadnt cried alot for a while so definately good to get it out and be able to say exactly how you feel and what you felt about the relationship. I think was healthy for both of us. I wasnt really scared of saying anything.....even things which could of been hurtful.....which i think is good. Also rose could say anything too......we basically got most of it out......whilst i ate a gourmet pizza from gordon.

Then i dropped rose off at steve's and got teary again. I just read rose's blog and she said she had a good talk with steve and got some more stuff out. Good for everybody i think! I also got a really interesting email from rosie-o, long and very open. Definately would of been hard to type it out or to open herself up like she did in it. I admire that, its hard for anyone...and especially someone whos prob not the most open about her emotions...well thats sounds not exactly what i mean..but oh well. Was good to hear rosie talking from the heart.....or soul...or whatever you want to call it. Talking from the place where your brain doesnt get to put its own tinge or impression on it, its always was a relief when i spoke/wrote like that, so im guessing for her it feels really good too. I must thank her for sending me that email, it takes courage and it is risky to say certain things, so thankyou.

So does it change my mind about us, or about me, or about anything. Well not at the moment. The thing is, i think i understand why she wrote it. It was totally for her, not for me. Sometimes you must say things..not for the otherperson but for yourself, you must get it out. I know this exact feeling...you just say it...you go for it...if that makes sense. Its positive and it influences everything in someway and i like that. So good to get it out....for her not me.

I guess i do feel like its a little to late, but that doesnt stop or mean anything. From what rose said...i shouldnt influence her at all in what she does, its for her and im proud that she is saying these things...it will help us both get through whatever we have to get through:).

Well right now just waiting for a msg from rose and going to go see them at steve's. Prob wont stay very long, as im getting pretty tired..just had a shower you see....see i do clean myself!

I really need to backup all my photo's onto a dvd hmmm.

Also here are two pictures which i like. The sandwich just looks really crisp and good. And the 2nd is just a photo i took at hadas's which i like for some reason, enjoy? or dont, the mind can be wicked.