wagganet..the final frontier.
Well,
im trying this blog @ 7.05pm at home (wagga) on my computer. This is probaly the last time i will ever post on my blog from wagga on my computer. The reason? im in the middle of packing. I have packed the car up with almost everything, all that is left is this computer and a few bits and pieces. Then ill be on the way back to sydney for good.
Rose is going to be coming with me too see hadas and stay at her place for the w/e. I cant wait to see hadas either.....and matt...be good to catch up with both of them.
I also cant wait to be myself again. I cant wait to do exactly what i want to do and not have to worry about anything. I know it sounds selfish but thats what i want to do. time for myself......time to get things worked out and straight again. time to be happy with myself and exactly what i am doing. i cant wait to go for some rides around ...anywhere....cant wait to look for a job...(hopefully with jb-hifi in chatswood) i cant wait to meet heaps of new people wherever i work, i cant wait to see millie and my brother, i cant wait to be back in my house, i cant wait too see some friends, i cant wait to play some squash/soccer/bball, i cant wait too just be home i guess. I feel like i cant totally be myself when im around rosie atm. not to say thats her fault at all. Just how i feel..i want to be alone with myself and only myself and that will happen on monday next week. I wonder what i will be feeling on monday? or tuesday? or for that entire week, will i figure out all the stuff in my head.
Do i want to be in a relationship? Can i be entirely myself, content, happy, playful, excited in a relationship? Can i understand and accept a partner in a relationship at this time in my life? These are all things i need to understand and make peace with in myself before i even think about getting into anything. I feel by talking to lots of different people and stuff...well not alot mainly hadas i will be able to figure stuff out and be happy and make the right choice. I dont think its going to come quickly. i feel bad for rosie, she just has to wait for my decision, i wish she didnt have too. She has been very good about it......but the thing is i dont know how long its going to be. I guess time will tell. that maybe is the most inconclusive and annoying statement ever. time will tell? wtf? well it will, but it always does, but that doesnt help the now! oh-well time to finish packing and i guess ill speak to all of you, from sydney ! :P.
im trying this blog @ 7.05pm at home (wagga) on my computer. This is probaly the last time i will ever post on my blog from wagga on my computer. The reason? im in the middle of packing. I have packed the car up with almost everything, all that is left is this computer and a few bits and pieces. Then ill be on the way back to sydney for good.
Rose is going to be coming with me too see hadas and stay at her place for the w/e. I cant wait to see hadas either.....and matt...be good to catch up with both of them.
I also cant wait to be myself again. I cant wait to do exactly what i want to do and not have to worry about anything. I know it sounds selfish but thats what i want to do. time for myself......time to get things worked out and straight again. time to be happy with myself and exactly what i am doing. i cant wait to go for some rides around ...anywhere....cant wait to look for a job...(hopefully with jb-hifi in chatswood) i cant wait to meet heaps of new people wherever i work, i cant wait to see millie and my brother, i cant wait to be back in my house, i cant wait too see some friends, i cant wait to play some squash/soccer/bball, i cant wait too just be home i guess. I feel like i cant totally be myself when im around rosie atm. not to say thats her fault at all. Just how i feel..i want to be alone with myself and only myself and that will happen on monday next week. I wonder what i will be feeling on monday? or tuesday? or for that entire week, will i figure out all the stuff in my head.
Do i want to be in a relationship? Can i be entirely myself, content, happy, playful, excited in a relationship? Can i understand and accept a partner in a relationship at this time in my life? These are all things i need to understand and make peace with in myself before i even think about getting into anything. I feel by talking to lots of different people and stuff...well not alot mainly hadas i will be able to figure stuff out and be happy and make the right choice. I dont think its going to come quickly. i feel bad for rosie, she just has to wait for my decision, i wish she didnt have too. She has been very good about it......but the thing is i dont know how long its going to be. I guess time will tell. that maybe is the most inconclusive and annoying statement ever. time will tell? wtf? well it will, but it always does, but that doesnt help the now! oh-well time to finish packing and i guess ill speak to all of you, from sydney ! :P.
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